Some of you may have noticed that I often refer to my cancer situation as my “journey”. This is not a blasé comment, but a well thought out phrase that I have chosen for a reason.
Many people consider the challenges of cancer as a “fight”. Terms such as “fighting for life”, “fighting to survive” and such are often used in reference to cancer. Anyone going through a cancer diagnosis has every right to refer to it as they deem fit. There is no right or wrong way of doing it and it is a very personal matter. I don’t want to be seen as fighting a battle. What happens if I lose? I don’t want to be someone who lost the biggest fight of their life. As someone who fought hard, but their hardest wasn’t enough. What if it gets too hard and I choose to stop treatment. This doesn’t mean I lost the fight, but rather I had decided to end my journey. But this is silly talk as I am planning a rather long journey.
This is my journey. A journey in which I grow from experiences, met new people and come to a deeper understanding of what is important in life. On my journey I plan to see and experience as much as I can. When I think about a journey, it elicits excitement and joy. These are not feelings that a “fight” brings about.
Yes, there will be hard times in which I will need to suck it up and fight. Unpleasant treatments, side effects and procedures. That is a given and I will press through these hard times.
These battles are simply just a part of my journey.